Saman-lah

Today is one day which I will remember for the rest of my life.

I was on the phone while driving when unfortunately, police came from behind and ask me to pull over. This is the 1st time I'm being stopped by a policeman. He asked me for my car license and I gave it to him while he took out his notes and start scribbling. I was just keeping quiet while looking around me.

Then, he said: Cik, mau kena saman ker?
I looked at him and said softly: Samanlah, samanlah.
police: Betul mau saman? saya belum tulis lagi ni.
Me: Apa kamu mau?
Police: Saya tak aper nya. Suka kamu lah nak bagi masuk poket.
Me: (paused for 2 seconds) Samanlah, samanlah.
Police gave me back my lisence and said: Saya puji cik. Sekarang, pandu betul-betul.

I drove on, feeling proud of myself.

It was a split decision. To realize that I was so close to paying him off, and suddenly I was reminded of Kok How's experience of not giving in. And that gave me the courage of saying "Samanlah".

I will remember this for the rest of my life.

The desert song

This song reminds me that God is indeed a wonderful God. He reminds me that I am being filled in order to be emptied again. And again. And again. This song, is my prayer.

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've received I will sow

What will Jesus find me doing?

If Jesus is coming back on the 2012, what will He find me doing?

Will he find me in the mission field?
Or find me sharing to my friend and relatives about His love.
Or spending time with my family.
Or lazing around on my bed.
Or working hard for my ambition.
Or trying to figure out what His purpose for my life is.
Or still living in doubts.
Or losing my faith.
Or choosing the world and myself over Him.
Or still finding myself.
Or living a prayerless life.
Or living in a defeated life.
.........
Or will I be found worshiping Him,
dwelling in His love all day,
living a life of victory,
blessing people around me,
cooking for my friends and family,
feeding the poor,
all for Him and Him alone.

Maybe one day

Today I went to meet a 70 year old customer. He is a very interesting man. Being the owner of a reputable company, he has got so much of valuable experience behind him. He is proud of his inventions and has indeed contributed much in the food industry. Talking to him made me realize how I love spending time and talking to old people. They have so much of stories to tell and so much insights. He is 70 but the way he talks like as if he is only 50. He said "Maybe one day when I'm tired of doing this, I will do other things". Wow,such energy.

Maybe one day, when I'm tired of going around meeting different people, or when I've grown weary in the food industry, or when I'm ready to embark on a new journey, but definitely when I'm certain that God says "It is enough".

Then, I will be doing other things.

"Rejoice in the Lord. Again I say, REJOICE!" Phil 4:4

The day that me and my car was sick

There seems to be a problem with my car, so I took it to check at the Perodua service centre. I paid rm60 for it only to have the man came back to me and said "We cannot detect anything wrong with your car". And my car is still .... un'treated'.

I had flu and went to see a doctor to get medicine and MC. While at the clinic, I came across an article about a Bidayuh village in interior Sarawak. And my thoughts went back to the time I went to 'STOMP' in Pantu, Sarawak in May2009. I miss...

1. The 2 hours boatride under hot scorching sun into the longhouse
2. The 'berandau'ing session at the longhouse where all the villagers come and eat together with us,
3. Playing with the children, running around, singing songs with them
4. Holding 'kingkong's hands and running in the longhouse from one end to another
5. Feeding Kingkong and watching him eat. (Kingkong is the nickname of a 3 yr old boy)
6. Playing with Robertson, the 2 year old boy
7. The inik who hugged me tightly and cried, saying that I look like her granddaughter who hasnt been back for a long time.
8. Being awaken each morning before 6am by the cocks crowing, and listening to the cocks competing with each other to see who is loudest.
9. Cooking and washing dishes in the dark
10. Bathing in the river

Ohgosh, I miss Pantu. Dearly. And I definitely miss the chickens who made me smile each morning.


The view in Pantu at 6am




Villagers at Enchiap

# I am forgetting things very easily these days. Big or small. Important or less important. I just hope that I do not ever forget the goodness of God.


"Rejoice in the Lord. Again I say, REJOICE!" Phil 4:4